There are so many times when I run my mind like a hamster on a wheel trying to find the answer to a particular dilemma. I will think and think and think, running a situation through so many scenarios in my head, trying to imagine an outcome. Or perhaps I should say trying to force an outcome. Or control the outcome. Or imagine all possible outcomes. All in an effort to find an answer to a problem.
Suddenly this evening I realized, there is no answer.
Or perhaps it would be better to say there is no one answer. Or no right answer.
When we are feeling uncertainly, what we want more than anything is an answer. More specifically, the right answer.
But each situation in life has so many possible outcomes that we may never be able to project the right answer.
This can be tough to accept. Uncomfortable. Anxiety causing. Especially when we really want a particular outcome. We want a square peg to fit in a square hole. But probably I don’t have to tell you that life laughs at those desires and gives us square pegs and round holes galore.
So what can we do?
Suffer an angsty existence punctuated by our constant obsession with trying to get it right? Sure, if you want to run like a hamster on a wheel. But if you don’t want to be constantly running, running, running, then step off the wheel and start walking toward acceptance. Acceptance of the fact that there may not be an answer.
Are you ready to stop running like a hamster on a wheel?
You have put your finger on a common addiction , very difficult to kick. The over-valuation by western society of the rational mind is a prime culprit in funneling people toward it. However, as most of your posts point out, the “answer” to most conundrums is found in an individual choice to embrace of all parts of self and stop under-valuing the ones that don’t add up to 4.
It is a difficult addiction to kick, though, isn’t it?!
I think some of it also has to do with wanting to be perfect and trying oh-so-hard to never make any mistakes. But we all know how that story ends, don’t we? Lol